There's Something About Felicity

I have always said, there is something about Felicity. Not sure what it is. Perhaps she's an old soul who when arriving on this planet fussed to no end because she wasn't content in just being a baby. Perhaps she is pure. Simple and unaware. Felicity always surprises me...sometimes in ways that try my patience.

Last week Felicity turned 8 and without the loss of her sister, she wouldn't be here. My life as I know it would be different and I know I wouldn't be as lucky as I am for having her and raising her. I have shared how Felicity started out struggling. I shared how neighbors would check to see if I was okay because her colic had her crying from dawn til dusk and I shared how she's truly the meaning of her name, happiness.

Today, as I rushed around trying to get dinner cooked, homework complete and make sure that we had all we needed for the next day she appeared. She stood before me and asked to create. You see, Felicity also creates...a lot...and often leaves her creations (and creative methods all over the house for the little ones to get and use in various places such as couches), so we have a rule, you must as to create. And she did. I agreed and looked up as she ran to grab the markers, paint, pens and pencils and prop herself up at the table. I was chatting with my good friend and glanced over to see "I love Austin".

You love Austin? Who is Austin I wondered when she piped up and said "NOOO I love Autism.".


You love autism? I asked as my friend giggled through the phone and instantly I smiled. Truth is, this kid pointed out what I already knew. I love autism too. I don't love the difficult moments but I love it for so many reasons.

I love that I have become more patient....because of autism.

I love that I have become more understanding....because of autism.

I love that autism has made my children more aware of others with disability.

I love that autism is finally showing me what I am supposed to do with my life and why God chose to have me here on earth.

I love that autism teaches me to relish in the moments. I love that because of autism, I live, eat and breathe milestones and those simple sentences you never thought twice about are gems that you share with friends.

I love that autism has made my marriage better. 

I love that autism has taught me to allow myself to be snuggled and cuddled the way a mom should be.

I love that autism has taught me so many more have it so much harder than I do.

I won't pretend that autism hasn't caused me to struggle. I won't pretend that autism doesn't cause me to question myself as a wife, mother and friend but I will celebrate it when I am reminded of all the good autism brings. 

As I said today to someone, I never planned this journey but the girl who is guiding me along the way is my hero because she's made me the person I was intended to be.

Comments

  1. Aww, that is beautiful, Ellie! I love autism too because I love Seraphina, and you! You are such an advocate for her, and in turn for others as well. God is good!

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  2. Aww, that is beautiful, Ellie! I love autism too because I love Seraphina, and you! You are such an advocate for her, and in turn for others as well. God is good!

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